?

Log in

Previous Entry | Next Entry

In a life where I have an embarrassment of riches in the friend department, where I have met some of the most special people in my life right here in this very journal, there comes along a person that just changes everything. A person that makes you want to be better, to reach further, to put a smile on their face that becomes permanent. flaming_muse is such a friend. It took us years of politely smiling at one another in mutual friends' journals before we finally figured out how to talk to each other. And from that point, it's become a need in my life to talk to her daily. And when I say daily, I mean that it's not uncommon for us to have email threads that exceed 75 in one day. (Not to mention texts, and actual writing work/communication.)

There's not a day that goes by that I'm not grateful for her friendship, or that I'm not grateful for the light and support and love she gives me daily. I highly recommend getting a friend like that in your life (but you're not taking mine. :D) Happiest of birthdays, the Kurt to my Blaine! (In a platonic sense, of course. :D)

Author: Stoney
Title: I Will Always Feel The Same
Rating:
Word count: 1150
Summary: Sometimes it's best to not ask ourselves “what if's.” FLUFF!! I promise.
A/N: Written as a birthday gift for my lovely RL and fandom friend, flaming_muse. Unbeta'd, because she's my beta! Poor treatment to make her work on her birthday... All mistakes are mine, but taking her hand on the stairs (in a metaphoric way) wasn't one of them. Quite the opposite, actually. <3 (Title is taken from “I Will,” by The Beatles.)





“What if I'd hesitated?”

“Hmm?” Blaine looked up from Kurt's lap where his head was resting, startled by the concern on Kurt's face.

“Blaine. What if I'd hesitated? What if I didn't call out that day?”

Now Kurt was biting his fingernail. “Kurt? I don't know what you're talking about.” Blaine shifted until he was facing towards the back of the sofa, the movie on the tv completely forgotten. He pulled his head back so it was resting on Kurt's knee and he could see Kurt's face fully.

Kurt stopped chewing on himself and looked down at Blaine in shock. “The stairs, of course! What if I had hesitated?”

“The...stairs?” Blaine felt completely and utterly lost. What on earth was-- “Oh. Oh! Dalton?” He couldn't help the smile that spread across his face at the memory of their meeting all those years ago. He finally gave in that this conversation was going to happen, pushing himself up so that he was mostly in Kurt's lap and resting his back against the arm of the sofa. He drew his fingers down the side of Kurt's neck, his heart picking up in speed as it always did at the sight of Kurt's eyes fluttering closed from the contact. That Kurt still reacted like it was the first time he was being touched, even after all of these years, never failed to make something in Blaine's heart soar that he was still able to make Kurt feel special.

“Yes,” Kurt breathed. “Those stairs.” His eyes snapped open, the momentary lull seemingly gone. “What if I just assumed that everyone was racing to some boring class? What if my car had broken down? What if--”

His frantic rambling was shut off by a firm kiss from Blaine.

“But it didn't.”

“But what if it had?”

“But it didn't.”

“But,” Kurt tried again, his voice almost frantic even as he became quieter and quieter, as if he was afraid to speak loudly and tempt fate, “what if some random Freshman had turned around when I called out?”

Blaine took Kurt's hand in his, lacing their fingers together. He pressed his forehead into Kurt's neck and nuzzled just at the collar of Kurt's shirt. “Then he would have told you where everyone was going and you would have followed.”

“But--”

“And then,” Blaine said, interrupting him and using the fingers of his free hand to draw nonsense patterns on the front of Kurt's shirt, just over his heart, “you would have come into the Commons and heard us sing. And then I would have seen you, because let's face it, that wasn't any kind of proper disguise you had on that day.” He smiled against Kurt's skin as he felt Kurt's soft laughter. “And I would have done something ridiculous, like jumping on some furniture or sliding across the floor on my knees, doing everything I could to get your attention.”

He pulled the edge of Kurt's shirt away to expose the little hollow between his collarbones and ghosted his lips over it, smiling against Kurt's pale skin as goosebumps rose and Kurt shivered.

“But...and I know I keep saying 'but',” Kurt said, his voice already going breathy, “but you didn't want me then. So what would have happened?”

At that, Kurt grabbed Blaine's hand and clearly this wasn't something Blaine could kiss away. He sat up and really looked at him. Kurt was worrying his lip and his eyes were searching Blaine's intently.

With a heavy sigh, Blaine threaded his hand into Kurt's hair, pulling him closer so they could be forehead to forehead, breathing the same air. His voice barely a whisper, Blaine said, “And then I would have spent night after night wondering who you were and why you were there. I would have gone all over town trying to catch sight of you. And when I finally did,” he pulled back and stared intently into Kurt's worried gaze, “I would have wanted to know everything about you.”

Kurt seemed to be holding his breath. Blaine cupped his cheek, his thumb drawing lightly over Kurt's prominent cheekbone. “And I wouldn't be able to get you out of my head. I would have forgotten all about that curly-haired nimrod that worked at The Gap. I wouldn't be able to stop thinking about you. I always wanted you; I just didn't know how I was going to have you.”

He pressed their lips together lightly, his own shoulders dropping in relief when he felt Kurt sigh and lean into him. “Kurt, we would have found a way to each other. In any universe--” He corrected himself and held Kurt more firmly by the jaw just at his ear, his thumb stroking over the fullness of Kurt's bottom lip. “In any alternate thing you're thinking of, we end up together. That's how it's supposed to be, don't you think?”

Kurt didn't say anything for a moment; his eyes searched Blaine's and seemingly found something satisfactory, as his whole countenance lit up and he raked his fingers through Blaine's hair. “I do. But I like knowing that you do, too.”

Blaine's throat felt hot and tight at the sincere look of love on Kurt's face. He swallowed past it as best as he could, saying in a voice choked with emotion, “I do.” He laced his left hand with Kurt's, feeling that same sense of rightness when Kurt's thumb traced over the thin band of platinum on Blaine's ring finger as he had the day Kurt had put it on his hand in front of all of their loved ones.

“Kurt...I would have looked for you forever.”

Kurt's eyes closed as he held Blaine even tighter, sighing sweetly. “One day I'm going to roll my eyes when you repeat that to me.”

Blaine chuckled softly, trying to control his grin in order to press a kiss to Kurt's temple. “You love it.”

Kurt breathed out a gentle laugh, his hand pressed just over Blaine's heart and his thumb working back and forth over the soft cotton of Blaine's t-shirt. “I love you.”

“I love you, too.” Blaine shifted their bodies so that Kurt's weight was now on him, no simple feat on their narrow sofa, but he'd mastered the art of getting Kurt into his arms just so over the years.

Kurt hummed his pleasure, resting his cheek on Blaine's shoulder as he reached out to grab the remote and switch their television off.

Blaine took Kurt's hand back, kissing his knuckles in the softly genteel manner that he knew still sent a thrill of pleasure through his husband. “And because I love you, I am never letting you watch Sliding Doors again.”

Kurt laughed, his arms tightening around Blaine's waist. In every conceivable “what if,” Blaine knew down to his DNA that this was how it would always end: the two of them, together.



It should go without saying, but I'll say it anyway: I am 100% AGAINST spoilers and speculation. Do not mention anything that even hints at anything to come in S4. Please. Please please please. :) And you should go here to send her birthday greetings, should you be so inclined!

Comments

( 25 comments — Leave a comment )
(Deleted comment)
stoney321
Aug. 19th, 2012 06:56 pm (UTC)
Oh, I'm glad! It's just a trifle, but it's like extra buttercream frosting on a delicious slice of cake. :D

<3
flaming_muse
Aug. 19th, 2012 06:34 pm (UTC)
WHAT? WHAAAAAT? YOU MADE ME CRY EVEN BEFORE THE FIC STARTED, AND THEN YOU WROTE ME FIIIIIIIIIIC, AND IT'S SUCH LOVELY FIC, AND THE BOYS AND BLAINE WITH THE REASSURANCES AND THE TURNING OFF THE FEAR-INDUCING MOVIE AND THE WEDDING RINGS AND JUST THE EVERYTHING AND I MAY BE STUCK IN CAPSLOCK FOREVER, THANKS TO YOU.

Thank you. Truly. For everything, including and especially our unending e-mail threads! :D

BECAUSE OF THE LAYERS.
stoney321
Aug. 19th, 2012 06:58 pm (UTC)
I MEAN, IT IS JUST A SIMPLE THING AND I WOULD WRITE YOU A 200K FIC IF I COULD, BUT.

We were having a conversation about them being destined for each other (in a matter of speaking) and this came out in between emails, and then I hemmed and hawed and OKAY I WILL SHUT UP.

I just love you tons, and want your birthday to be glorious, is all. *fills your house with balloons and flowers*

JUST LIKE THE SONG.
lacebird
Aug. 19th, 2012 07:09 pm (UTC)
I'm melting over the cuteness of that story and I feel overwhelmed by feelings right now.

“Kurt, we would have found a way to each other. In any universe--” He corrected himself and held Kurt more firmly by the jaw just at his ear, his thumb stroking over the fullness of Kurt's bottom lip. “In any alternate thing you're thinking of, we end up together. That's how it's supposed to be, don't you think?”

Truth and the best way to sum up all the things that could be said about those two.
stoney321
Aug. 19th, 2012 07:19 pm (UTC)
Oh, I'm so happy you're happy! Thank you (and really. They will - and should - always be together in any universe!)

<3
flosspyromaniac
Aug. 19th, 2012 07:34 pm (UTC)
Oh, my poor battered heart.

So sweet and so lovely and Blaine taking care of Kurt away from the nasty film. Thank you so much for sharing this with all of us :)
stoney321
Aug. 19th, 2012 07:46 pm (UTC)
Battered heart!? D: This was supposed to do the opposite!

I'm glad that you enjoyed Blaine being sweet to Kurt, though!
flosspyromaniac
Aug. 19th, 2012 09:24 pm (UTC)
Oh, it did? Sort of? It's just between all the talk of them not meeting in this and Muse's fic it's just all a bit much?

Besides which, fluff can hurt too sometimes ;)
stoney321
Aug. 19th, 2012 09:27 pm (UTC)
Speaking of Near Misses...what do you think inspired this? :D

FLUFF ISN'T SUPPOSED TO HURT! COTTON CANDY DOESN'T BRUISE! (lol)
flosspyromaniac
Aug. 19th, 2012 09:33 pm (UTC)
I figured, considering you're the one pushing it to us like heartbreaking crack...

Wrecks your teeth though, doesn't it?
(Deleted comment)
stoney321
Aug. 19th, 2012 08:29 pm (UTC)
*clapping hands a la Kurt seeing Brittany's prom proposal*

YAY! I'm so happy this made YOU happy, thank you!
(Deleted comment)
stoney321
Aug. 20th, 2012 01:34 am (UTC)
Great minds think alike? :D

I definitely believe that they will always end up together. Engamer for life! ;D And thank you for reading!
fara1903
Aug. 20th, 2012 02:22 am (UTC)
That was lovely! And happy birthday to http://flaming-muse.livejournal.com/
stoney321
Aug. 20th, 2012 02:59 pm (UTC)
Thank you very much for reading!

(And ha, no, you should TELL HER! You know, in her journal! :D)
whisperyvoices
Aug. 20th, 2012 02:38 am (UTC)
YAY! Lovely people doing lovely things for each other! YAY! Birthday celebrations! YAY! Timeless friendships for the ages! YAAAAAY!

And now on to the fic - *yes*, in every variation of an alternate universe, these boys would find each other, and love each other to their trembling cores. I just ADORE fluff that's set in them being at home together, doing simple, mundane things. The earnestness and sweetness of love in the every day gets to me in the best possible way.

Urgh [in a good way]. Wedding bands. Knuckle kisses. Too-small couch cuddling. Mmmm!

Thank you, Stoney, for your general sparkly awesomeness!! You're a delight!
stoney321
Aug. 20th, 2012 03:00 pm (UTC)
She's just good people, full stop. :)

I just really believe that. They are so important to each other finding out about themselves, as all good friends/important relationships do/are.

Thank YOU for reading! <3
wowbright
Aug. 20th, 2012 04:21 am (UTC)
Schmoopy sweetness yay! Just what the doctor ordered!
stoney321
Aug. 20th, 2012 03:00 pm (UTC)
Hooray! And thank you very much for reading! <3
chefreeni
Aug. 22nd, 2012 10:20 pm (UTC)
Yaaaay. Birthday fluff is the best fluff. And because AU's in which they don't end up together kind of deserve to step on Legos.
yay for finding each other -- on both counts.
stoney321
Aug. 22nd, 2012 10:37 pm (UTC)
Sometimes you just need some fluff. :D

I DO NOT WANT THE AUs WHERE THEY DO NOT GET TOGETHER. (Well, if it's REALLY well written, I do, but. That is as rare as hen's teeth!)

Thank you for reading!
livejournal
Sep. 2nd, 2012 05:54 pm (UTC)
Recs 2012-09-02
User pushplaytobegin referenced to your post from Recs 2012-09-02 saying: [...] , G. Over time, the ND kids part, reunite, and part again. Beautiful. I Will Always Feel The Same [...]
justusunicorns
Sep. 19th, 2012 10:51 am (UTC)
I'm glad I'm not the only one who worries about what-ifs. I feel your pain, Kurt. Just take a deep breath and try to enjoy the what-is.
stoney321
Sep. 19th, 2012 12:24 pm (UTC)
I will pass him the message! ;D (Thanks for reading!)
( 25 comments — Leave a comment )

Tags

Are You Actually

Reading this? I'm just curious. Because that's really detail-oriented of you. Feel free to stop reading. But you can see that there's more here, so are you going to keep reading? Really? That's pretty dedicated. I'm impressed. No, really. I'm not being sarcastic, why do you get like that? See, this is the problem I have with your mother - yes. YES. I'm going there. It's time we put all of our cards on the table.

I love you, why are you doing this? After all we've been through? You don't have to be like this. You know, still reading. You could be baking a pie. And then sharing it with me.

Time Wot It Is

April 2017
S M T W T F S
      1
2345678
9101112131415
16171819202122
23242526272829
30      
Powered by LiveJournal.com