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I am boring as shit.

the boy in his innocence
My life, however, is not. Balance and all that, I suppose. Feeling very cocooned and wallflower-ish, and I do know that most of it is of my own making. People seem to care when I talk about my family, and since things are an upheaval again - my son has passed out multiple times, the last time was the night before last, and he's staying unconscious for longer periods each time - so I thought I'd at least explain why I'm so absent, should you wonder.

We're heading out to a cardiologist (and then a neurologist, and hopefully someone will have an answer) in a few minutes to figure out what the hell is going on with him.

Muse gets onto me for not reaching out for love and support, but it makes me feel lame and grabby and whiny, like I'm begging for people to pay attention to me - which, I mean, I am, I realize that - so blame her for this. :)

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brunettepet
Jan. 8th, 2014 04:26 pm (UTC)
Fuck, Stoney. How scary. I've been wondering how your son was doing. I'm sorry to hear he's not well. Here's hoping you get some answers and he's on the mend quickly.

*big hugs and healing thoughts*
halfmoon_mollie
Jan. 8th, 2014 04:28 pm (UTC)
my thoughts are with you and your family. This can't be easy for any of you.

And hey, lame and grabby and whiny - that's okay and to be expected in this particular case. 'Don't fash yourself' (as Jamie Fraser would say). Whiny posts are acceptable, just post when you can.

Love you.
poisontaster
Jan. 8th, 2014 04:36 pm (UTC)
Good luck and hopefully answers SOON. ♥
cindergal
Jan. 8th, 2014 04:38 pm (UTC)
Geez, how terrifying. I hope you get some answers soon. *hugs*
wesleysgirl
Jan. 8th, 2014 04:39 pm (UTC)
*Hugs and loves* I am hoping so hard that the doctors figure it out super-fast and that it's super-easy to fix. I'm glad you posted so I know to be thinking of you!!
flaming_muse
Jan. 8th, 2014 04:40 pm (UTC)
BLAME ME. YES, BLAME ME. ALL NEGATIVE THINGS TO ME. ALL POSITIVE THINGS TO STONEY. <3

(Proud of you!!!)

And you know what? I'm not going to let you be a wallflower. I'm going to grab your hand, drag you away from that wall, give you a drink, and then dance with you out in the middle of the floor until the sun rises... or until we want to go sit somewhere fabulous and talk and eat and stuff, because I know us. :D
secondalto
Jan. 8th, 2014 05:02 pm (UTC)
May hugs and I hope they find out what's going on.
fiveandfour
Jan. 8th, 2014 05:34 pm (UTC)
How frightening! Best wishes for a speedy medical explanation and cure.
podle
Jan. 8th, 2014 05:54 pm (UTC)
That sounds terrifying.
I don't even know how many times I have taken hope and inspiration from your posts. If my good hopes and wishes for you and your family are any sort of consolation please consider it a more than fair trade.
ahestele
Jan. 8th, 2014 05:55 pm (UTC)
*hugs* I'm so sorry about your son's issues! It's best to see if anything can be diagnosed. I'll be thinking of you both.

Please don't hesitate to reach out. I know it's hard; I have a hard time, too, but we all love and care about you, though far we might be. :-) *snuggle*
zyrya
Jan. 8th, 2014 05:58 pm (UTC)
I send all the hugs! I hope there are answers pronto for your son.

And when you're feeling cocoonish and lame and grabby, I am standing outside your bedroom window, holding a boombox over my head, in the rain, longing for you to come out and dance with me.
fabrisse
Jan. 8th, 2014 06:06 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry to hear this. Please let me know if there's anything I can do.
ladycyndra
Jan. 8th, 2014 06:19 pm (UTC)
You're not lame, grabby or whiny. I hope they are able to figure out what's going on with your son. Many positive thoughts. *HUGS*
anelith
Jan. 8th, 2014 06:38 pm (UTC)
Wow, that is scary, I hope to read some good news from you soon after seeing the doctor(s). Hugs and love to you and your boy.

You know I always want to hear what's going on with you and yours. <3 <3 <3
eac
Jan. 8th, 2014 07:03 pm (UTC)
I hope the medical types can sort out what's happening with your son; frightening for everyone concerned. I also hope you've been able to sort out the prescription problem you talked about a couple of weeks ago.

(For the record, I'd also be interested in reading about things other than your family, if those things were things you had time, interest and energy to write about. I find time, interest and energy in short supply in January, myself.)
eac
Jan. 8th, 2014 07:04 pm (UTC)
Oh, and "lame, grabby and whiny" are not words I associate with your posts.
bdbdb
Jan. 8th, 2014 07:18 pm (UTC)
Oh honey. Keep us posted, will ya? I hope you get an answer quickly and it is something easily fixable. <3 you!
turnonmyheels
Jan. 8th, 2014 07:34 pm (UTC)
I hope you get answers Correctly and Quickly. All my love to you and yours. REACH OUT for support, yo
seadragonlady
Jan. 8th, 2014 07:47 pm (UTC)
Thinking of you. Hope it all goes well.
artemiswinter
Jan. 8th, 2014 08:55 pm (UTC)
Sending good vibes your way. :/
redaly
Jan. 8th, 2014 09:10 pm (UTC)
I'm sending you all the good thoughts I can muster- this must be so scary. You are NEVER lame and grabby and whiny! You are entitled not to post if you don't want to, big scary things are more important- but know that we have all friended you here because we like you and we want to pay attention to you, so anything you feel like writing would be absolutely welcome.
kita0610
Jan. 8th, 2014 09:44 pm (UTC)
Thoughts, prayers, and all that jazz bc you are so very loved. And deserving of support. There are a TON of benign reasons for syncope, and I am sending all the vibes in the world that they figure out soonest which one of those it is, and make it stop.

To recap: you're loved. ALL THE TIME. <3
harmonyfb
Jan. 8th, 2014 09:58 pm (UTC)
I'm keeping y'all in my prayers, Stoney.
mrmonkeybottoms
Jan. 8th, 2014 10:32 pm (UTC)
Aw hon, I'm sorry to her that. I'm sending good thoughts your way xxx ooo
lynnenne
Jan. 8th, 2014 11:47 pm (UTC)
Oh, honey, how terrifying! I hope they can figure out the issue soon. All the hugs to you and the kids. <3333
sheafrotherdon
Jan. 9th, 2014 01:03 am (UTC)
Muse is very smart. You're not lame or grabby or begging for attention, you're just sharing where you're at, and I'm glad of it. Sending such warm thoughts to you and your son as you figure this out, and clinking my virtual red wine glass against yours ♥
enigmaticblues
Jan. 9th, 2014 01:42 am (UTC)
*big squishy hugs* I really hope you guys get some answers soon.
sroni
Jan. 9th, 2014 02:50 am (UTC)
I'll be sending positive thoughts your way. I'm more a lurker than a commenter on your journal, but I do pray for you and your family when I see that stuff isn't going well.

I really hope he's okay, and that the doctors figure out what the issue is quickly and swiftly. Thoughts and prayers are with you and him.
anonymous_sibyl
Jan. 9th, 2014 04:22 am (UTC)
I'll be keeping your son in my thoughts and close to my heart.
entrenous88
Jan. 9th, 2014 02:14 pm (UTC)
I'm glad to see your post, though so sorry to hear about the passing out issues with your son. I'll cross fingers and toes that the doctors begin to address the problem right away with good solutions.

I was thinking just yesterday, seriously, about how things might be going with you, and was going to email if you didn't post soon. I should have emailed earlier probably, but I'm in slight retreat mode myself. I know that feel, bro! Anyway, *hugs*
beadattitude
Jan. 9th, 2014 02:41 pm (UTC)
Oh my gracious! My MIL had something very like, and it turned out to be arthritis in her neck cutting off blood flow. Scary scary when it happens. Hoping for every good thing, and thanks for telling us. I know exactly how hard that was.
evamagick
Jan. 9th, 2014 11:00 pm (UTC)
*hugs*
txvoodoo
Jan. 10th, 2014 07:45 am (UTC)
grab & whine all you want.

MUCH LOV.E
dovil
Jan. 12th, 2014 12:56 am (UTC)
I logged on to livejournal specifically to see how you and the mini-Stoney's were doing. Boo, hiss dude. Jesus, life needs to give you a break. I hope to hell you were given an answer to this, or at least a direction in which to go. Thinking of you, in that supportive caring shit kind of way, not the creepy heavy breathing one. You get ALL the hugs in the world. ALL OF THEM!
kseenaa
Jan. 30th, 2014 08:14 pm (UTC)
Oh gosh... o.O That is scary. I was thinking about your family the other day. And here I am reading up on my f-list and sees this... Geez... I hope things are looking up for him and you. And that you all got some answers. *HUGE HUGS*

Edited at 2014-01-30 08:14 pm (UTC)
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