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Today is not a good day. It's kind of a culmination of several bad days weeks months in a row. Feeling isolated and lonely and without options is just about the suckiest thing to suck, and all of my close girlfriends (the ones I don't have to explain myself to, don't have to filter myself to) live in other states. That makes me feel trapped like whoa. Random blah about whine whine people blahCollapse )

Everyone in the family is gone for the weekend, which should make me happy because hey! Quiet house to myself, that's a rarity! Except I have no desire to write (what I would normally do in this situation) because quite honestly, no one gives a shit about the stuff I'm writing (I can't even get trusted FAMILY MEMBERS to read some of the things I'm working on and tell me anything about it - even that it sucks. They just...won't read it.), which makes it very hard to care about it myself. Wah, wah, poor white girl with a roof over her head, I know. I make myself eyeroll, too, and this is not the journal you signed up for.

Pleh. It's just one of those "why bother? With anything?" sort of days, but I seem to be having them a LOT lately.

ION, I plan on making this for my dinner because no one will eat them before I get a chance to. If avocado fries can't cheer me up...


Maybe I should create an alter-ego and fight crime. Or turn tricks. Or turn tricks while fighting crime. It's good to be ambitious, I hear? =P

/insert OMG do I try gold star


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Jun. 16th, 2013 12:48 pm (UTC)
::all the hugs and all the love::

It's completely normal how you're feeling even if it's awful.
Jun. 17th, 2013 03:57 pm (UTC)
<3 <3 <3 to you!
Jun. 16th, 2013 11:10 pm (UTC)
Okay you, go through your phone book list and pick someone you haven't seen for a while and book them in for lunch tomorrow. DO EET! You will have FUN, or it will be awkward and boring and you'll curse my name forever. Reach out and touch someone, and then speed away in your car before the cops turn up.

Collect cats and don't throw things out ...this will lead to happiness and fulfillment!

ps. I have been really, really (truly) hoping for your Mormon story, because I genuinely would love to see that published and to read it - not as a suck up, but I loved the bits and pieces that you released. So feel good about yourself asshole, because you are talented.

Jun. 17th, 2013 03:59 pm (UTC)
YOU ARE NOT THE BOSS OF ME. Why is that? Why haven't you become a media mogul and hired me? Frankly, I find it quite rude.

Also rude, you not living close enough to come spend a weekend with me floating in the pool (I have a water-proof burkha for you to keep you from becoming engulfed in flames) and drinking until we learned a new language.

How dare you. Also, you remain one of my most favorite humans on the entire earth, so don't cock that up.
Jun. 18th, 2013 01:24 am (UTC)
Oi, shithead did you ring someone for a lunch date?! (I would make a horrible therapist, I really shouldn't be allowed near people.)

I am SO the boss of you, I have this certificate that I mocked up in Word that makes it so. The UN might be all 'human slavery is wrong', but whatevs, I just made a certificate that makes me the boss of them as well.

Ahahaha, I love the idea of water-proof burkha - the outside of the pool can be wrapped in dark material as well, right? And everyone's eyes for two miles, blinded?

HUGS AND LOVE (I'm mixing it up, old skool)

Jun. 17th, 2013 02:42 pm (UTC)
I am sorry I've been a bad friend, and haven't checked in with you in forever. Love you.
Jun. 17th, 2013 03:31 pm (UTC)
I LOVE YOU. A little radio silence isn't going to change that, my sweet. <3
Jun. 18th, 2013 12:13 am (UTC)
That does suck and you should whine all you want. The challenges and roadblocks and the sheer amount of it all that has been thrown your way are all pretty damn overwhelming. And then to have "friends" who just want you to smile and act nice at a party?! Uh, uh. For what it's worth, I totally and completely empathize. I'm in the midst of a fuckstorm myself (I can say fuckstorm, right?) with a new job and a relocation and selling our house and my husband not so sure any of it is a good idea...but I have one girlfriend of the filterless variety who actually does live in my town, and there are days when that gets me through. Modern life where it's possible to have friends states away is great, except that they're still states away and can't aimlessly float with you in the pool. I'm sending a huge, boob-crushing, just a little longer than what's appropriate hug your way.

And let us know how the hooking/crimefighting goes, 'kay?
Jul. 26th, 2013 08:23 pm (UTC)
It IS OK to let out some steam sometimes. ;-)
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Are You Actually

Reading this? I'm just curious. Because that's really detail-oriented of you. Feel free to stop reading. But you can see that there's more here, so are you going to keep reading? Really? That's pretty dedicated. I'm impressed. No, really. I'm not being sarcastic, why do you get like that? See, this is the problem I have with your mother - yes. YES. I'm going there. It's time we put all of our cards on the table.

I love you, why are you doing this? After all we've been through? You don't have to be like this. You know, still reading. You could be baking a pie. And then sharing it with me.

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